I found myself inside a box. I was wearing my MOST WANTED  WHITE CLOTH, BLACK PANTS and MY SHINY BLACK SHOES. Inside the box I was LYING DOWN and I can’t move. OMG! I was locked in. Outside the box  I saw FLOWERS but I can’t smell their aromas.  I saw people who’s wearing white dresses, I was surprise and I asked over myself ‘WHY’RE THEY CRYING?

Then, Someone is talking.. He’s telling me that I’m so YOUNG to be dead. WHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTT? How it can be? I laugh and I screamed a lot but they can’t hear me. Then my eyes started to shed tears but the one who’s talking can’t glimpse my tears. I can’t accept it as TRUE. I can’t find a place to exit inside the box. There’s no door nor a window other than the glass infront of me.  I shouted a lot and started to freak out when I noticed that I was inside a COFFIN. No one heard my yells. Then I realized that I wasn’t breathing to further extent. This is reality. It came to the truth that all I need to do is to accept it.

After that, I felt that I’m starving. I need to eat. There, I saw a bunch of biscuits, fruit juice but I can’t move. Wheww!  I found out that my INTERNAL ORGANS are gone. I cried so much.

Subsequently, I miss my FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT; I told it to myself. I’m sure that I have PLENTY OF PENDING COMMENTS. How can I answer it? I haven’t tell to anyone my PASSWORD. Then someone uttered, Oh! It’s the voice of my BFF.  He told that I answered his comment but the HELL! I haven’t open my FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT since I’m here. They’re so scared and don’t believe it!

I shouted so much but still they can hear me! I shouted again but still. Nobody! 

I felt like I’m moving. Then I saw HUMAN BEINGS behind and infront of me! They’re carrying me. They placed me inside of the church then the priest was uttering then my MOM and DAD are crying a lot. Water poured infront of me. Ohh! It’s HOLY WATER. I wonder why! Then they carried me again.

I’m moving to another place.

I heard drum beats and trumpets. There, inside the car they placed me. ‘Where am I going?,‘ I told to myself. Gosh! After a few minutes I did’nt knew that I was in the SEMENTERYOO. OHMY! The MANS who’s carrying me dropped me in the soil. Afterwards, slump of soil is coming from my coffin then DARKNESS is covering. I can hear my mom’s voice but I can’t see her anymore. I can’t see my dad! I can’t see ANYONE! They VANISHED.

I was so naive. The place is filled with too much darkness. There’s no light.

I cried and screamed. I understood. I’m not BREATHING ANYMORE. I’m dead.

Ohh! What’s happening?   I had a DREAM last night.. Actually I don’t call it as a DREAM, maybe it’s a NIGHTMARE.  Very WITTY nightmare.

-PENNAME

Sabi MO, ang gobyerno natin ay palpak.

Sabi MO, ang mga batas natin ay sinauna.

Sabi MO, ang lokal na pamahalaan natin ay hindi maganda ang pagkolekta ng basura at ang paglilinis ng mga lugar.

Sabi MO, hindi gumagana ang mga telepono, katatawanan ang kalagayan ng trapiko, at hindi nakakarating sa paroroonan ang mga sulat.

Sabi MO, parang nasadlak sa basura ang ating buong bansa.


Sabi Mo, sabi MO, sabi MO.

E ano’ng ginagawa mo tungkol dito?

Kumuha ka ng isang taong papunta sa Singapore. Bigyan mo siya ng pangalan, ‘yung sa IYO.  igyan MO s’ya ng mukha, ‘yung sa IYO. Lumabas KA sa airport nang pinakamatino mong sarili na maipagmamalaki sa mundo..

Sa Singapore Hindi KA nagtatapon ng upos ng sigarilyo sa kalye.
Ipinagmamalaki MO ang magaganda nilang underpass.
Nagbabayad KA ng mga 60 pesos para makapagmaneho sa Orchard Road (parang EDSA) mula alas 5 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi.
Bumalik KA sa parking lot para bayaran ang parking tiket mo kung napasobra ka ng oras sa shopping o sa pagkain sa isang restaurant.
Sa Singapore , wala KAng sinasabi, meron ba?

Hindi MO susubukang kumain sa lantad kapag Ramadan sa Dubai .
Hindi MO susubukang lumabas ng bahay na walang takip ang mukha sa Jeddah.
Hindi MO susubukang lagyan ang isang empleyado ng kumpanya ng telepono sa London para mapunta sa ibang tao ang mga long distance na tawag mo.
Hindi MO susubukang lumampas ng 90 kilometers per hour sa Washington, at saka sasabihin sa pulis "Alam mo kung sino ako?"
Bakit di MO subukang dumura o magtapon ng upos ng sigarilyo o balat ng kendi sa mga kalye sa Tokyo ?
Bakit hindi MO subukang bumili ng pekeng mga papeles sa Boston tulad ng ginagawa sa Recto?

Pinag-uusapan pa rin natin IKAW.
IKAW na gumagalang at sumusunod sa patakarang banyaga sa ibang bansa pero hindi makasunod sa sarili mong lugar.
IKAW na tapon ng tapon sa kalye pagtuntong mo pa lang sa lupa.
Kung IKAW ay nakikisalamuha at pumupuri ng systema sa bansang banyaga, bakit hindi KA maging ganyan sa Pilipinas?
Minsan sa isang panayam, ang dating Subic Administrator na si Gordon ay may katwiran ng sinabi nyang "Ang mga aso ng mayayaman ay pinalalakad at pinadudumi ng may-ari sa kalye, tapos sila mismo ang pumupuna sa may katungkulan sa kapalpakan sa paglilinis ng mga kalye.

Ano ang gusto nilang gawin ng mga may katungkulan?
Magwalis tuwing makakaramdam ng hindi maganda sa tiyan ang kanilang alaga?"
Sa America , bawat may-ari ng alaga ay dapat maglinis matapos ang pagdumi ng aso. Ganuon din sa Japan .

Gagawin ba ng mga Pilipino yun dito? Tama sya.

Pumupunta tayo sa botohan para pumili ng gobyerno at pagkatapos nuon ay tinatanggal na natin sa sarili ang responsibilidad. Uupo tayo sa isang tabi at paghihintay ng pagkalinga at umaasa na gagawin ng gobyerno ang lahat habang wala tayong iniaalay.

Umaasa tayo sa pamahalaan na maglinis, ngunit hindi naman tayo titigil sa pagtatapon ng basura sa kung saan-saan, at ni hindi tayo pupulot ng anumang piraso ng papel para itapon sa basurahan.

Pagdating sa mga panlipunang talakayin tulad nang hindi pagiging tapat sa kasal, sa mga dalagang ina, sa pagtatalik ng walang basbas ng kasal, at iba pa, maingay tayong nagpoprotesta ngunit patuloy naman nating ginagawa ang mga ito.

Sa sandaling tayo ay mangulila kapag nasa labas tayo ng bansa, naghahanap tayo ng aliw sa iba, kadalasan sa kapwa rin natin Pilipino, na hindi natin iniisip ang ating katungkulan na ating sinumpaan sa ating pamilya nuong narito pa tayo.

Tapos sinisisi natin ang pamahalaan kapag nakikita natin ang karahasan sa kabataan, pagkagumon sa bawal na gamot, at iba pa, samantalang sinimulan natin  ito sa hindi pagpansin sa pangangailangan ng ating mga anak ng tunay na pag-gabay at responsibilidad ng isang magulang.

Ang sabi natin, "Ang buong sistema ang kailangang magbago. Ano ang magagawa kung ako lang ang magpapabago sa aking pamilya?"

E sino ang magbabago ng sistema?

Ano ba ang mga sankap ng sistema? Napakaginhawa sa atin na ang sistema ay binubuo ng ating mga kapitbahay, mga ibang tahanan, ibang syudad, ibang komunidad, at ang pamahalaan. Pero hindi kasama IKAW at AKO. Pagdating sa ating pagkakaroon ng positibong handog sa sistema, ikinakandado natin ang sarili, pati na ang ating pamilya sa loob ng isang ligtas na pugad at tumatanaw na lang tayo sa malayong mga lugar at bansa at naghihintay ng isang Mr. Clean na dumating at maghatid na mga himala.

O lumilikas tayo. Parang mga tamad na duwag na hindi pinatatahimik ng ating mga takot, tumatakbo tayo sa Amerika upang makisalo sa kanilang luwalhati at purihin sa kanilang sistema. Pero pag naging masalimuot sa New York tatakbo tayo sa Japan o Hongkong. Pag nagkahirapan ang paghanap ng trabaho sa Hongkong, sakay agad tayo sa susunod na eroplano patungong Gitnang Silangan. Pag may digmaan sa Gulf, inaasahan nating masagip at mapauwi ng Gobyernong Pilipino.

Lahat ay handang umabuso at gumahasa sa bansa. Walang nag-iisip na handugan ang sistema. Ang konsyensya natin ay nakasanla sa pera.

Mga mahal kong kababayan, ang sulating ito ay matinding nakakakislot ng isipan, nangangailangan ng maraming pagmumuni-muni, at tumutusok din sa konsyensya.

Medyo inuulit ko lang ayon sa ating salita ang mga salita ni John F.Kennedy sa kanyang kabansa upang maitugma sa ating mga Pilipino:

"Itanong natin kung ano ang magagawa natin sa ating bansang Pilipinas at gawin ang nararapat upang ang Pilipinas ay maging tulad ng Amerika at ibang kanlurang bansa ngayon."

Gawin natin kung ano ang kailangan ng Pilipinas sa atin. Ipasa ito sa lahat ng Pilipino.

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Hindi ko talaga siya MAINTINDIHAN, pati rin pala SILA hindi rin nila maintindihan si SIYA.. Nakoo! Talagang hindi ko siya naiintindihan..

Pano ba naman kasi?

Nagnakaw na nga siya ng GANITO.. Paborito pa rin niya si GANYAN. Parang si GANYAN , pinapaburan niya ang masamang ginawa ni SIYA na nagnakaw ng TELEPONO. Hayy nakoo! Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang mundo. Ganito na ba talaga kabaliktad ang mundo? Huwag kang magmaang-maangan.. Tanga ka! Alam ko, alam mo ito diba? Masakit ang damdamin ko sa iyo. Masakit. Dahil kahit mas mataas ako sa iyo. Masakit dahil pinapamukha ni GANYAN na kinamumuhiin niya ang mga CHOIR MEMBERS sa aming kwarto. Mamatay ka! Hehe.. CHARING!

Sa araw-araw ba naman na GINAWA ng diyos.. Palagi nalang kaming nakakarinig ng mga masasamang hindi ko maintinidihan sa bibig ni GURO. Kinamumuhian atta ni GURO ang klase namin. Kahit MAIINGAY kami. Nako! Huwag kang MAGIMAGINE dahil mga DKJFHAKSXDHSDJMZ na salita ang lumalabas sa PAGKABANGOBANGO niyang bunga-nga. Mga kaklase alam niyo naman siguro kong sino siya? Siya yung guro natin. Paborito niyo pa nga yung subject niya. Yung may GENETICS at ganyan..

Ano ba ito? Naranasan kung humithit ng ganyan.. Uminom ng GANITO. Paano na iyan? Huwag mo naman sana akong isusumbing kay inay.. Baka habulin ako ng itak ni itay. Mamatay pa ako sa nerbyos. Sige.. Ikaw bahala..

Walang kwenta naman ito ohh.. Wala akong Mapindot sa pindotan na kanais-nais. Mahal ko ang MMK. Mamatay ka sa inggit!

Naging kami pala ni ANOO ngayong 2nd year. Kahit alam ko na HINDI NAMAN NIYA ako MINAHAL. [kornii] Minahal ko pa rin siya sa kabila ng mga KAGAGAHAN na ginawa niya sa akin. MAHAL KO PA RIN SIYA. Sa mga panloloko. MAHAL KO PA RIN SIYA. Pu*tang ina ko!

Binabasa? Basahin? Babasahin? Tama ba? hahahaha.uLOL!

Nagmamahal,

Team Kapamilya. PATAY si MAGALING!

I wanna go back to my SOPHOMORE LIFE. I wanna experience the ECSTASY one more time but IGNORE the MISERABLE ones.

Finally, It approached to it’s CONCLUSION and I gotta WAVE goodbye to my 2nd year life.

I did nothing Bad nor Good this year for the reality that I was awarded as 2nd honors during the Recognition Program. And I’m conveying my gratitudes to my loving Educators specially to my MATH and BIOLOGY teachers because honestly I did’nt understand some of our lessons, specially MATH. Sh*t. The QUADRATIC EQUATIONS ekek’s. I NEGLECT THOSE!

Truly, the 2nd year students SUFFERED alot because of the MIND-BREAKING.. National Achievement Test. We really had a Hard Time. So much thanks to my loving parents for their SUPPORT and to my TEACHERS who did all their best during the NAT times. And thank God We survived even though I got so STUMPY in MATH.

I had the CHANCE to adhere with the Laoag City Childrens Choir who won in Namcya as 2nd placer. Thank God I was one of them. The CHANCE to JOIN my fellow SPA’nians in the 1st Sining Pambansa Festival in Baguio City. I would like to thank Mr. Sherween and Sherberk Cabrales for those opportunity. And my fellow SAMIWENG SINGERS and LAOAG CITY CHILDRENS CHOIR for making my SCHOOL YEAR worth to remember.

My SOPHOMORE LIFE is incomplete without experiencing to scamper in the Supreme Student Government. I ran as the AUDITOR but sadly I did’nt win. But Thankful because I met some friends. And I would like to thank Ate Krixxa Calucag for selecting me to ran and for trusting me,either.

And to the II-SPA Luna-Obusan.. Thank you so much for making me happy. And you guys completes my LIFE. Thank you for the JOY‘S we shared and SCRATCH the nonsense issues. I know we had the misunderstandings but it’s certainly just a test for us to hold on with each other. Thank You So Much for giving me the CHANCE to be your MAYOR even if the fact that you’re hesitating that you voted me.

Welcome to our JUNIOR LIFE. Don’t be afraid to face the new CHALLENGES, and new TRIALS. We can make it..

This is the REAL THING.. 

First on the list.. I badly miss BAGUIO CITY. The 1st Sining Pambansa Festival.. My ROOMATES. The Deliciosoo FOODS. Oh menn! And what I miss alot are the SPA Participants of the festival. They’re all GREAT. We all have EXTRAORDINARY talens[kindly, INCLUDE me ALSO.] I also miss the LOLing Farewell Night. Waa! That’s indeed.. A night that FULL OF FUN and FULL OF MEMORIES TO CHERISH. A night that I realized that SPA students are ‘RAWRAW!’ That SPA students are.. Yes! Terribly a PARTY ANIMAL.

Second on the list.. I surely miss alot. The 2007 NAMCYA in the CULTURAL CENTER OF THE PHILIPPINES . I miss all the JOY we made with my fellow choir members. In joining that competition I really learned alot from our CONDUCTORS and TEACHERS who helped us to be the 2nd placer on the national. It’s certainly hard to placed 2nd on the NATIONAL for the fact that all the contestants are clever.

And the last which could be the first one is my HONEY-SUCKLE-BABE. I’ll not give you any informations about her. But I really miss her SO MUCHH. Please come back! I ♥ you.

I really missed those ekek’s. Well, while I’m typing this one. MOONLIGHT SONATA is PLAYING on my speakers

Someone just told me..

"Don’t go there.. Its strangeful. Many Human beings died there." Its goofing on my head, the white man ass told me. Im too nervous.So, I’ve decide no to go with them, but i thought i was the Mayor and i really need to go.  Oh men!

We planned, Currimao or Pasuquin. Which is better? They’ve said its Currimao. Majority wins, its Currimao. We planned so many things.. Too much things that keep mingling on my mind. Some said "Oh yes, i’ll come." and some also said "Oh no! I cant come!" Its a class outing, its the time for us to jam and relax from the TORTURES that Mrs. B gave us( Yes! You read it right. We hate her so much!!) I asked Angel to bring like this, I asked Marah to buy like that. I asked all of them to come but they did’nt come. Imagine? I did all my best to convince them because I want them to have a GOOD TIME. (Do you find that sweet?)

And mare….

Its Sunday. The day of our UNPLANNED outing.

I woke up so early because Marah asked me to go with her in the Market to buy like that and like this( THIS IS HOW YOUR MAYOR LOVES THE II-SPA). I went to the PALENGKE, imagine Im so ignorant there (Can’t explain why!).

Oh! We bought Fish balls, kikiams and hotdogs (Maybe, you’re thinking something. No, THAT’S WRONG. We’re not going to sell those!) We bought, and Mamii the rain started to pour. Gosh! The droplets are so BIG(Sorry, I cant find another word for BIG).

THE OUTING IS NOT POSTPONED. haha!

Hooray! We’re still going despite of the heavy rain. laff. First to arrive in the school was EUGENE TAN ( probably, you don’t know him! He’s a rich kid who loves OUTING. am i RIGHT?)

Too much  of that.. We’re on our way to PASUQUIN. hahahha.(DOON KAMI NABAGSAK, KASE ANG LAYU DAW NG CURRIMAO!) In the beach could I’m SEXY BITCH or No! its sexy beach. Haven’t you heard it already?

Haha. I was so excited when I saw the beach.. The waves and the smiling faces of the PEOPLE who’re already on their own ways. haha! I putted my things in a NOWHERE TO FIND side and then I dove into the deep blue see( Im not sure if the PAST TENSE of DIVE is DOVE. Let me go back to elementary!). We played and i took the pleasure for  CAM-WHORING. haha! Suddenly, someone asked us to eat.. We ate our VERY delicious SPAGHETTI without using any utensils, We’re on barehanded, It was my FIRST TIME=]]

After that.. We went on the large body of water. Just swam and swam and did you know that was prone into DEATH. haha! But I will not tell you why. Im sorry, ask me personally for that. haha!

Ohye! And then we went home because our foods are already gone.

I’m so tired babes but the fact that i really enjoyed SUPER alot ‘i used SUPER because its TRUE.’ wii. i would like to thank my CLASSMATES. the 15 of us, almost 1/10 of the II-SPA Luna-obusan.

ENUMERATION:
-EUGENE TAN
-FRANCO PARAS
-RAUL PARAS
-CHRYSALYNE PALERMO
-ANGEL PASCUA
-JERT TORREGOSA
-MARGIE AGCAYAB
-GRANT ZAIDY MATIAS
-JESSICA GAOIRAN
-MARAH PASCUA
-KRYZ CASSANDRA GARCIA
-ANNA NAVARRO
-MELODIE SAPAD
-DAYZELIE DUQUE
and YOUR’s TRULY=]]

i had so much FUN with you guys. till NEXT TIME

i would like to thank ANGEL PASCUA for the unexpectable MALICIOUS SPAGHETTI=]].

END. Im sorry. Im not in the proper mood to write a blog right now. haha!

Its been a very long time since I updated this dim-witted BLOG of mine. Here I am again, In front of the thick COMPUTER, typing this one and its making me so DORK.

THIS IS MY POST. . Conceivably, summer is the ride out where students can RELAX from the TORTURES inside the school.

AND THEN I CAN GIVE YOU THE DETAILS OF MY SUMMER EXCITEMENT..

Anyone can go to the beach, including me..
And oh yes! My first summer getaway was at  La paz Beach. I had a fun time there for its my FIRST time in that PLACE. (Probably, you’ve read that RIGHT!) I ran to the beach like a youngster looking so ignorant that it was my first time to glimpsed a large body of water. haha. After almost 1 hour with the salty-coldy-freshy water plus the scorching heat of the sun, My skin looked dim, if that sounds new to you maybe "CHOCOLATE BROWN SHADED SKIN" would ring the bell.

Following, my trip to La paz will be incomplete without tasting the delicious MIKI. I adored the miki there. One of the best miki I’ve tasted. haha.

Afterwards, the very enjoyable summer vacation altered to BORING one. Go on, spell it for me.

However, Me and my classmates will have an outing. So, damn excited!

I’m blabbing too much, let me end this one by saying…

YOU guys must take pleasure this summer vacation 2008. Bang to the beach. Don’t loathe the hot fever, for it’s the true spirit of SUMMER.

Ito’y ginawa ko noong ako’y nasa unang taon sa high-school. Hindi ko naipasa. Nakita ko sa luma kung bag. Nakatambak kaya eto, basahin niyo nalang!

    The night was soft and warm I lay gazing at the ceiling. The whole house was quiet, except for the occasional coughing from my own congested throat. Tommorrow I would probably die. I had far too many things to think about to go to sleep. I was thinking of the hospital which my father is lying and sick. 

   Morning came and I went to the hospital with my mom to visit my dad for the valentine’s day. The hospital is a huge place with colored stripes floor. When I entered the room of my dad I saw him in a high bed that was folded in half some way. I wanted to hug my dad but I was afraid of what Mama’s reaction. I didnt like the place and i wanted to go home. There all at once we were leaving.

   At home, the telephone is ringing and the telephone call would ruin everything. My mom woke up and answer the telephone in a few seconds the whole house was buzzing with some sort of news. I dont expected that my dad died,because he is too young to be dead. Next time daddy come home I’d tell him about the person who called.

Minahal ko siya noon. Mahal ko pa rin siya ngayon pero huli na ang lahat nakahanap na siya ng iba. Nagsisisi ako kung bakit nakipaghiwalay ako sa kanya. Nagsisisi ako kung bakit hindi ko naipakita sa kanya ang aking pagmamahal noong kami pa. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko siya maalis sa aking isipan. Gusto ko siyang kalimutan at ibaon sa limot, ngunit hindi ko kaya. Pwede mo ba akong tulungan?

Sabi ng isa kong kaibigan, huwag ko daw masyado ibaleng ang aking atensyon sa kanya pero hindi ko talaga kaya. Nahihihrapan ako,  kapag hindi ko siya nakikita, hinahanap siya ng aking mga mata. At ayun, nakita ko siya kasama ng bago niya. Nasasaktan ako at pilit tinatago ang aking nararamdaman na parang may sumasaksak sa aking puso.

Kaya ngayon, sanay na sanay na akong itago ang aking nararamdaman. Kailangan ko yun dahil ayaw kung naaawa ang aking mga kaibigan sa akin. Ayokong ipakita sa kanila ang aking tunay na nararamdaman . Akala nila parati akong masaya, dahil nasanay na sila sa masayahing ako. Kaya ang mga ito dinadaan ko nalang sa tawa ngunit kapag ako’y nasa loob na ng aking kwarto,LUHA ang pumapatak mula sa aking mga mata.